I'm afraid I will never atchieve something in my life, I'm afraid of being useless, helpless, clueless, and being just another life wasted... I would love to belive the ones who say that everything is possible and that nothing cannot not be done, but maybe I do not deserve to achieve anything aslong as I don't belive entirly the world of infinite possibilities, But although I'm not sure it exists, I do love it, with all my heart, and belive me when I say this... I always wear a smile on my face, pretending that it's all okay, I've ended up beliving it my self, it ISN'T okay ! Or maybe it is and I'm just looking for some drama to spice up my life... but I don't think that it would hurt this bad if it wasn't true! The problem is that I do not have a specific goal in life, I do want many things, and inspire to achieve greatness, and to do amazing things in life that would help all human kind or at least draw smiles on some people's faces and warm their hearts, but I do not khnow what those things are yet, and therefore I do not know how to obtain them, I need a target in order to target it, right ? Because if I can dream it, I'm sure I can do it!! Hopefuly life will uncover that mistery, I just wish it wouldn't take so long... Or maybe I should try uncovering it myself because if I do so and succed, the reward for it would me much more satisfactory.